# AGE:17 going 18
I'm scared.I can't face the reality..
I think my mind is bursting..what the fuck am i thinking?
And recently i've just fucking hell lost my fucking phone while playing bball at Kim seng CC..Fuck that!!
Today should be meeting ah boy and shawn bah.
Yesterday went to play bball with derrick,we talk alot about the past.
I miss the past,but there's no way i can get back there.
How i wish i could stay at that happy moment forever,forget the burden,forget about what bullshit studying.
What i want is to live happily,but i don't know how to.
I want to live a crazy life!!
Maybe my mind had freak out..
How i wish i can just lie in my coffin and die peacefully,so that i've no more worries.I've been a coward all my life.
I'm not being emo or whatever so,i'm just stating the fact.
I've no future,i'm no life,i'm a coward to life,i can't wake up from my unconsciousness...i'm always been sleeping for my life,i'm lazy..i always find things troublesome.
I'm always a failure.
Anyway no one cares about me.
Say and do is a totally different thing.
Some people always say they care,do they really care?or they just say for the sake of saying?
Where are all my amigos?I'm really lonely,i felt helpless,i want to release my stress!!!Who want to go have a drink?
I feel devil inside me,recently i've been unforgiven.DO YOU THINK I WANT TO BE UNFORGIVEN?It's YOU ALL WHO CAUSE ME TO BE!!!FUCK THAT!
7:14:00 AM
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