# AGE:17 going 18
Ya is dead for awhile.
i always feel like crying haiz...think of lots of things.
I don't know what i'm doing these few days,just leave me alone.
I don't know why i had so much to think.
All my friends are gone,i'm so lonely=(,keep on staying at home i'll gone crazy one day.
I now in love with piano.There a song very nice called"小雨写立可白"
I love the past,i hate the future.
How i wish i would always be in primary school,I'm so busy.But now?I'm so bored
When i was in primary school,i'm not emotional at all because i'm busy.
I felt so hurt,it's really hurt me.
Who would be there for me when i'm sad?
How i wish i could be like last time.
I wanna die,really just die and everything is gone.
Somehow now all my friends like treat me as a stranger.
Haiz..........Everyone say they care,do they really care or just care for the sake of making me not to think so much.
I may not seems as strong as i am.
Believe it or not I'm the weakest when facing any relationship.
4:44:00 AM
Yesterday,went SSC play soccer with zhao hong,hong hui,eugene,jian sheng and ka hwee.
After that went tiong eat qi ji then went to tiong taxi stand there cause there a band concert from Bmss.
After that left zhao hong, hong hui,jian sheng,edward then we decided to play pool then while playing i saw nowell and shirley.Then they 2 keep cursing me-.-
Quite emo after playing pool,cause of some stuff that i think and songs.
After playing,went to bus stop and wait for bus 195 and is so darn long la.
Then jiansheng went insane and pump at the road,we did take the photo but he deleted it so ke xi.
10:21:00 PM
Some people only always think that their right,i hate this kind of people.
In my class there are some bullier,they sucks to the core man only know how to bully smaller size de,childish.
Today went to leng kee and play Bball with hock zhen,chung aik and kenneth,after that i went home,so bored.
Feeling down right now,no mood.
Think more isn't wrong,but will be more worry and serious about everything you do.
Think less will only make more mistakes because you're not that worry and not really serious about everything,but you will be more relax.i rather be worrying then relaxing.
Sometimes i felt that why i can't be like everyone else so relaxing and no worries,haiz.....but i just can't relax=(
Past to me is a beautiful memories,how will the future looks like?
10:13:00 PM
Anyway today went to eat with zhao hong,edward,eugene,hong hui & kevin.
After that went to Vivo and walk around,then went home.
I'm affected by Jay's movie now.Where to find the piano song(Secret)?
It's so nice,and the movie is sad=(,makes me emo haiz....
And i'm in love with the same....now.Unfortunately i don't think it will end the same as the show.
But nvm i'm fine now=)
Nothing can compare love.
1:33:00 AM
I bet no one will believe i'm sick.
Having cough,fever now haiz.....
Today never go out stay at home playing games.So BORED!!!!
Congratz Wee teck from coming back from A-Wall punishment=XX
Now i know love isn't a simple words,it's a feeling that no one can explain.No matter how much you love the person,if the person doesn't love you it's no use of waiting might as well give up.But giving up isn't so easy,it's so painful to give up a person you really love.
Yesterday i read my past post,i admit it's quite emotional.I think i shall end here,BYe~
9:41:00 PM
Then after i woke up went to play soccer with zhao hong etc....
Then went tiong kopitiam eat.After that kevin went buying present,then me,zhao hong,jian zhong went to NTUC buy Ham and drinks.I saw 2 basketball friends there so qiao haha^^
After that we went home le,I went home faster go watch the match:Chealsea vs Manchester United.The final score is 1:1 but penalty is 3:0,Van der sar you rockx!!!!! save all 3 goals awesome haha!!!!Chealsea sucks@!!!!!!hahaha=x somemore chealsea have 4 injured player hehe so happy sia.
ＸＩＴＩＮＧ a.k.a siao chabo ＨＡＰＰＹBIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!
How brutal can a man be?
4:16:00 AM
I slept until 3.45p.m i sleep for around 12 hours haha=x
I never go out at all so boring at home.
How i hope i can go back to primary 6,nothing to think just concentrate on my badminton,running and study.But i can't do that now,i don't have Badminton/track & field CCA.Even have,the guys there which i had for primary school are gone=((
Secondary school life isn't fun at all,all my friends are like far apart from me..haiz....
Maybe going school tomorrow having cough and fever for the past 2 days.
Even if i'm sick,i also can go out and play.There's one time i had a fever around 38.4 degree,i went to lan shop and when i come back my degree is 40.3 but i still feeling ok just a bit giddy.
I'm a lucky person,i should have died 7 years ago when i had a accident.
How i wish i could die on that year that place that moment，rather then now here thinking of lots stuff people avoiding me,Stoning at home.Haiz....Living to me in this world is suffering.
How i wish everything have a happy ending
8:14:00 PM
After playing with them we need to return the ball to hong hui then zhao hong throw from SSC to Hong hui house's blk then the ball drop down,haha so suay.
After that i went home actually wanna go vivo find shirley de but then no one pei me go haiz...
Then my grandma called me saying whoever wanna see me,so i went to my grandma house it's been quite a long time since i went to my grandma house,cause of some of my stupid relatives i don't like to go to my grandma house.After that i went home again,then had a good bath^^
To me life is so meaningless haix...
Me=Failure in life,love,study and everything i do.=((
Why can't i be happy?Alot people ask me,now i give you all the answer.
Because there's nothing for me to be happy at and i'm always saand i'm always sad because everything i want,i won't get it not like some of you,and i'm not simple minded so easy to be happy.
2:14:00 AM
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