# AGE:17 going 18
It's kinda bored today,went playing soccer with zhao hong they all and play with gu eh they all.
After that went to beach road with jian zhong,zhao hong,raymond(kapo kia) and edward to repair jian zhong's watch and eat chilli noodles(nice!!!)Then went home.
12:04:00 AM
After chionging went to play soccer and got my leg injured again=(
Today alot people ask me the same question do you still love her? I was like diao why all ask the same question so weird lor.
Nothing much to write le bye.
Happy birthday jessie lam and melissa=)
12:40:00 AM
To me school is just a place to study study study,so damn bored la not fun at all or the teacher giving lecture to all those damn childish people making the whole class to listen to all those crap.
If school is fun i'll be happy to go,go school can't do this can't do that is so restricted la,i rather stay at home which is not restricted.
Nothing much to write.
8:36:00 PM
There's no good friend around me in the school.
Love can't be force,and think the positive way serene^^Don't be sad le CHEERＵＰ！！！！
Ｗｉｌｌ tomorrow be a better day?
And who the fuck just use mingxian name and scold me sucks?I dare you come to me la,don't sabo people,wu ji scold in front of me.
After went to tiong eat LJS with serene,pearlyn and zhao hong,then went to my house and play mahjong with alvin and kevin around too.
Tired le need and to go rest le.
Most probably I'll be late later on.
More and more of my friends are getting more sad than before.
ALL my friends CHEＥＲUP!!!!!
是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的。
4:00:00 AM
I'm gonna crazy!!!!
I've been emotional for 15 years, i'm so sad.
The blog song now is a very emotional song isn't it?I love to listen to these songs,Aren't i weird,I'm only 15 years old.What a joke,I make myself look like a clown.
Do anyone really care about me?When i'm sad or happy no one was there.
I'm just a loner,no friends to accompany me,family not caring me.
Will anyone understand my feeling now?i doubt so.
Everyone is just studying to earn a living,to earn money.But money can't buy feelings or love.
Why is everyone so practical!?
Can't i do what i like?Can't the person i love to be with me?
Why i'm always the one suffering?I just want to live normally and happily is that hard?
How i wish i'm not born to this world.Nobody understand me,i mean no one in this world understand me.
Even understand also a portion only.If i had to ask myself,do you think that you look and feel like you are 15 years old boy?I'll answer no,A 15 years old boy wouldn't think so much and wouldn't felt so lonely but should be happily playing going out with friends having fun.
Do i have to live on this world suffering,crying?And people counseling me,telling me not to think too much,you're just a 15 year old kid,why you're not worried about your study?
Most important to me is not money not study but is friendship,love and care.
I love you but you're just avoiding me,i'm sad,when i saw you i've no courage to talk to you.
Whenever i saw you,i'll just tell myself,she's not yours,your are just a stranger to her.
I only can see you from far away,am i bad?or you just don't like me?
I felt like crying,my mind is so empty.
To you all i'm a scary,crazy,fierce guy.But i'm not as strong as you all think,I'm weak.
4:21:00 AM
No one will understand me,no one will really care about me.
You all will think that i'm crazy why i'm so emotional,is not i think too much is u all think too little.
Everything happy-go-lucky,are u all really happy?ask yourself man.If is me i can tell u i rather die than stay in this fucking world.
My family sucks,my school sucks,no one is close to me,not even parents,not even friends.How is wish i had a good mother that understand me and friends that really know what i'm thinking and try to understand me.Only a few of my friends really care about me,the others are like strangers,like only i know you,u know me and that's all.
i can't feel that anyone is caring about me.Do you REALLY think that you care about me?Crap,crap,crap,all i'm writing are all craps maybe some of you will think so.My fucking mother just don't understand me,stay with me for 15 years already,only know what's my name,but do you know how i feel,what i like,what i don't like?i bet you don't even know a single thing about me,what mother is this,you call this a mother?Don't even know your son birthday?Only know how to scold.I rather you don't born me,i rather go to hell then staying with you,you are not fit enough to be my mother.So what if you born me,i rather you don't,later people say what i unfilial,say what why you treat your mum so bad,people just see the outer part of the story and not inner part of the story.
PLEASE FUCK OFF MY LIFE.
3:14:00 AM
Go watch movie no slot,go eat dinner no sits,play mahjong kanna scold-.- i even see black cat today.
My mother is a motherfucker.She sucks like hell man.I dare u scold me 1 more time,i confirm whack you.i MEAN it.!!!
K'nn chee bye,dare me la k'nn.wu ji si kuai mai.
Serene don't sad le hao ma=) cheer up^^
2:31:00 AM
Today never go school again..
Went watching transformer with kevin and 1 more malay guy^^till now.
Kinda bored.Yea i'm always bored.
Yesterday cry don't know why maybe i think that people are talk bad about me and avoiding me=(
I hope that no one dislike me,really hope to.
11:49:00 PM
Once i wake up this morning i have headache so never go school.
I never even step out of my house to day,can say i never step out of my room.
Feeling damn bored=(.Treat people good when they are good,when u face a bad person just give them a living hell,they don't deserve.
KAITING you damn funny sia^^.
These few days my temper will be terrible,i don't know what i'm thinking or doing now.I so felt lost,so lonely as if i've no friends around me.Whose my real friends?Who can tell me?
How i wish i would never face this world with worries and terrible feeling,like lost somebody and heart breaking.
Can anyone try to understand me?Maybe i'm EMO but who know why i'm like that?
Am i isolated?Am i being dislike or hated?Why my feeling tell me that alot of people don't like me?I feel like dieing leave this miserable world.Why some people keep a distance away from me?Am i scary or something?
Haiz...Maybe is best to leave me alone.
8:24:00 PM
"Crushed"is my blog song is so darn nice^^.
Kinda bored today cause nothing much to do.
Yesterday exploring a new haunted house that no one went before not even SPI(P&C).
没有期望就不会有失望.Isn't it true?
From the start i don't have confident in anything that's why i'm not disappointed in anythings.But sometimes i do have because it can't be resist.
You all can say i think too much,but i just can't stop thinking.
Not that i do not want to is i really can't stop.
Why would a 15 years old kid think so much?
Because in his life,his miserable,upset,disappointed.Why there's always gangster?Can't the world be peaceful?Ok let's not say world.Singapore why can't it be peaceful,stare-stare incident,why gangster always think that people are staring at them,who the fuck want to see them la.G.A.L!!
And why people like to compare this compare that?Compare to yourself man.You are losing to yourself not others dumbass.
Maybe some of you won't understand what i'm saying but isn't important to be peaceful?
2:56:00 PM
Kinda no mood to go out=(
Anyone interested in going haunted house??Please inform me!!!!
Chatting with Tou Bei and laughing away cos the person is damn funny^^haahaa,Wo bu hui luan luan type de.
Comparing sucks to the core!!!!
Anyone interested in paranormal things??
I won't bother you man,we will not talk anymore.And that's the bottom line cause ac3kzer said so.
Tomorrow need to go school sian1/2,i don't want go sia.
Tomorrow need to wear tie and still have PE-.-''
Sure si bei sian de at school=(
Story that i wrote entitled:"Red house"
Don't know which time i went with a group of ah beng and lian,then when we wanted to climb in we saw a group of people inside wanted to climb out so we let them climb out first.When the last boy of their group climb out,he kanna his private part and drop down from the highest point of the gate,his friends said that he step on the lion head.
Before we climb in,my friends said must offer the lions cigarrette,but we don't want to cause the purpose to go "Red House"is to see ghost.So we climb in and there's a girl in our group when she climb in her slipper sudden spoil,and she fell down.
We went exploring the first house which was big,and when my friend flash the light i saw 1 white shadow the face was angry,but then i just keep quiet and continue the exploration.
Then we went to the house which have a wood on it,and we must bend and go in.It was the scariest house in there,we went in and a girl,my friend pull my shirt hardly,then i told her to calm down and keep quiet.
We went out and i asked who saw something 4/8 saw something.I and a guy saw a ghost with white shadow and a angry face.And 2 girls saw a women died in the bathtube when we went to the house with the wooden stick on it.
People say when girl have menstration,better don't go there.And the previous day i went to there "Red House",me and my 2 friends heard a guy saying"mmmm.argh!!"Another guy suddenly hit the wooden stick when coming out of the house,and we heard a woman laughing.
10:30:00 PM
So hot and somemore someone damn fucking childish say this:"you ps me more than i ps u"i was like =.=''childish freako.
Why can't you just grow up?so big size brain so small k'nn.
Still say parent's name compare this compare that.
I hate people who compare,that's what childish people do.
Like to say people,people say you cannot ar k'nn you who?you very big ar,very eh kan ar chee bye.
U try say one more time la nah bei.
Talk to people until so xl k'nn and u got hearing problem ar everytime people talk to u huhuhuh,huh lam pa Freak you!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUTING!!!!!
4:54:00 PM
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