# AGE:17 going 18
Think that i'll keep waiting.What if she's gone with other guy?
I don't know what i'll do.
I may do something very foolish.Or maybe torture myself?I don't know,i'm damn confuse now.
What if she don't even have feeling for me.
I don't dare to ask her,if she have any feeling for me.
Maybe let times decide it.
But i never bow to the fate.
I feel like killing myself now.
Why do i think so much?
I'm getting headache now.
I feel like crying out now.
I can say 1/2 of my life has sad memories the rest are all blank,waiting for times to fill it with sad/happy memories,i don't know.
I don't want to face the negative destiny,do i have positive ones?
Why everytime i only have sad memories to remember,do i even have a happy memories,a truely happy memory i can remember?
Maybe not,cause i'm sad everytime,sometimes i don't even know myself.
11:19:00 PM
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