# AGE:17 going 18
I'm gonna crazy!!!!
I've been emotional for 15 years, i'm so sad.
The blog song now is a very emotional song isn't it?I love to listen to these songs,Aren't i weird,I'm only 15 years old.What a joke,I make myself look like a clown.
Do anyone really care about me?When i'm sad or happy no one was there.
I'm just a loner,no friends to accompany me,family not caring me.
Will anyone understand my feeling now?i doubt so.
Everyone is just studying to earn a living,to earn money.But money can't buy feelings or love.
Why is everyone so practical!?
Can't i do what i like?Can't the person i love to be with me?
Why i'm always the one suffering?I just want to live normally and happily is that hard?
How i wish i'm not born to this world.Nobody understand me,i mean no one in this world understand me.
Even understand also a portion only.If i had to ask myself,do you think that you look and feel like you are 15 years old boy?I'll answer no,A 15 years old boy wouldn't think so much and wouldn't felt so lonely but should be happily playing going out with friends having fun.
Do i have to live on this world suffering,crying?And people counseling me,telling me not to think too much,you're just a 15 year old kid,why you're not worried about your study?
Most important to me is not money not study but is friendship,love and care.
I love you but you're just avoiding me,i'm sad,when i saw you i've no courage to talk to you.
Whenever i saw you,i'll just tell myself,she's not yours,your are just a stranger to her.
I only can see you from far away,am i bad?or you just don't like me?
I felt like crying,my mind is so empty.
To you all i'm a scary,crazy,fierce guy.But i'm not as strong as you all think,I'm weak.
4:21:00 AM
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