Ac3kz3r

2011-04-15T08:48:00.001+08:00

I'm so afraid to be hurt again,I don't want to be hurt.I can't take it anymore if it's gonna be a one sided.
The words is see in your "about me"I'm fucking jealous alright?

2011-04-12T06:57:00.001+08:00

I smile because of you

2011-04-07T05:59:00.001+08:00

Maybe I'm just another ordinary person.Do I stand a chance?I'm afraid of rejecting already.

2011-03-21T13:45:00.001+08:00

I just don't understand you.you treat everyone so cold?or just me?And why don't you trust me?Just be true,straight to the point.

2011-03-10T06:17:00.001+08:00

It's been so long.Felt empty,isn't it obvious that I like you?Do I stand a chance?

2010-09-01T03:12:00.001+08:00

5566-挑拨
曲: 于立成词:于立成

你看起来不太开心谁困扰了你
让你的眼神看来有些悲哀
有多严重你和他之间
到了不可收拾的局面了吗
我看起来也不太好我当然知道
因为你的表情让我很心疼
你不了解我和你之间
只是爱上了不爱我却又在乎(他)的人
只是爱上了不爱我却又在乎(他)的人

应该挑拨你和他我想这是最好的时机
只是当你哭着说你还爱他不忍离开他
我竟努力扮演你和他之间的和事佬
应该劝你离开他可是我怎么也做不到
因为当你笑着说我最好了是你知心朋友

我不敢也没勇气告诉你别把我当朋友
想做你的情人想做你的情人 oh....
rap:huh look here girl
look straight into this heart right here
this is how much i love ya
like the moon vever smile without the shinning stars
but but i ain't no peacemaker
wanna be your love,wanna be your lover
so, all around theclock, girl(all around the world)
i'll still be waiting for you, right here

2010-07-17T16:38:00.002+08:00

Thinking of the past even though it's short i've been happy with you,but i didn't know you're finding me irritating.
Seeing your blog hurts me so much.
Seeing your cold and mean sms makes me so sad and sorrow.

Why you do this to me?My heart is broken into pieces,only you who can fix it back.

But i know you will never will,cause you love him.not me.

Sorry to be a irritating person.Sorry for everything i done.

I've give in my 100% already,i've no regret.

Seeing my friends all in a couple hurts me,only me alone left out.

I think i will never know what's the feeling of being love by someone,someone like you.

2010-06-25T00:30:00.002+08:00

Lonely as ever.
Looking in the sky,staring at the star alone.Can you picture that image?The feeling of lost and lonely.

2010-05-22T05:16:00.002+08:00

Seems that i can't fall asleep.
Shisha with ca just now.
Hope tmr will goes well without any waiting.
Dream girl where are you?I had enough of single life:/

2010-05-08T06:01:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i post.
New environment with new people are great.No more backstabbing from nonsense people.
I'm bored,cold and hungry:/
Sometimes things aren't going your way,so try to force it!
Appearance change,personality will change too.
Mr nice guy ain't good to be.Mr bad guy = (y)easy and relax.
Fuck the world seriously!
Anyway i'm at my friend's house,and there's nothing to do-.-''
Hungry~~who can cook for me?:(

2010-04-01T09:03:00.002+08:00

I've cried so hard.
So you've never like me even a little.
You don't need to apologies at all.It's me who got it the wrong way.
But you know what?i'm really really hurt this time.
I really like you a lot..
The problem lies on me.
I'm annoying,irritating and vulgar.
I've choose not to let people in this door,but i've let you in.
In the end,you shut it hard.
I'm not gonna trust love ever.
Time for drinking spree!
I'm gonna get myself dead drunk next week.
Everything has change.
Starting i chose to believe we got hope but in the end is i think too much.How naive,how stupid i am.
"Things always got the opposite of what you think."
"Hope is devil"

2010-03-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm in chalet now(: Feel kinda down and stress right now,because of something.
I rather deserve the worst you then a better girl.
You may not be the best but,to me you are.
You may think that you're corrupted,don't deserve me.
If you are corrupted,i'll help you fix up,if you think that you don't deserve me then show me what kind of person can deserve me.
Why this situation always happens to me?Is it something wrong with me or what?
Sometimes being a nice person ain't a good things too you know?
Don't be afraid(:

2010-03-01T19:27:00.001+08:00

Hello people!i'm at pearlyn house now:DIt's so long since i blog!Hahah!Ite life rocks \m/
Have a lot of great friends^^
Hmm..lazy to mention what i did for the past few weeks,so ya..
Have a nice day peeps!:d

2010-02-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

Ok,i'm quite happy that i can finally pay my phone bill!:D
And i've made up my mind that i should give up,i should have done it long ago,i'm stupid to wait,i know that there's no hope but i choose to wait how naive i am.
Today i finally went for the first s&w lesson!Played basketball with my classmates(:
Some of them skills not bad ah!
Straight away went home and went to granny house and eat(:
Chat with her for quite long,talking about the past about grandpa.I miss you grandpa!
Remember this respect the elderly!
It's so nice to chat with my granny even though in the past we had some misunderstanding(:
But still i hate most of my family!
Oh ya please please shut your mouth TAN SI WEI!You're such a irritating pest to everyone not only me!
Valentines and new year is around the corner,which will you celebrate?I hope for valentines seriously.
Happy birthday Alvin lim seng swee and RUO SHI!:D

2010-02-06T12:03:00.007+08:00

Went to IteCEolympics Camp at Changi/East coast area.I consider it as a chalet,cause we stayed in a bungalow(:
3days 2 nights and it was awesome,really really awesome,though we are separating in about 1~2 months time.
Have so much laughter in this chalet,Superb!!WHOSAY!

2010-01-31T11:55:00.002+08:00

Can't fall asleep recently.Dream about you.
It's been so long since i last saw you.
Will we ever meet again?
How i hope i'm stuck in dream land because you're there,everything seems so perfect.

2010-01-24T06:53:00.002+08:00

It's almost 7 in the morning and i'm still awake-.-
Can't fall asleep,damn!
Went to watch tooth fairy yesterday with hong and alvin,kinda funny.
Then went out with pearlyn,kevin and cheng siong till 3 a.m.Talking crap,cracking jokes and blah blah blah~
Stupid facebook suddenly banned my account-.-''
Now i've to create a new one damn it!

2010-01-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i really wanna know what's in your mind.I've got no courage to tell you that i love you,i've always thought that you already have someone you love.
Even if you don't,i might not have the chance,i know.I'm afraid of rejection.
Why am i so timid?
So what if i tell?
Does it make a different?
Yes it does,worst part is you will never ever talk to me again.Or treat it as nothing has happen,and when we talk awkwardly every time.
Confession=Stranger/Lover

2010-01-15T01:57:00.002+08:00

It's fucking hell 1.56am and i'm still not asleep-.-
Didn't went to school for the past 2~3 days.
Kinda lazy to go(FAR)
Finally brought my badminton grip(:
Next i shall repair my string!
Life ain't the same after secondary school.
After secondary school you will become a soloist.More on your own.
I'm kinda lazy to go school tomorrow too.
I officially won't touch alcohol except beers.

2010-01-13T00:04:00.001+08:00

....I'm kinda speechless when i talk to you.I'm scared that i said the wrong words.

2010-01-12T17:27:00.001+08:00

Didn't went to school today,was so tired today.
It's already half a year since i waited for you.

2010-01-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

Everything is changing,I feared this feeling.The feeling is terrified.
School days were tiring.Went to night cycling yesterday,as usual went to changi village.Saw a lot of tattooist yesterday,they were awesome!One day i'll have nice tattoos too!(:
Legs and butt were numb after the long cycling-.-
It's getting late,i'm gonna bed soon.Bye peeps!

2010-01-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

1st day of ITE,was tiring serious,and boring.Hope tomorrow will be more fun(:
Have some new friends as expected.Hope i can get through these 2 years and go on.
I'm still hesitating,i still don't dare.Weeleng you're such a loser!

2010-01-02T17:09:00.002+08:00

Happy new year(:
I seriously hate noisy people.
Feel like punching all these people-.-

2009-12-28T09:29:00.002+08:00

Apocalypse.Believe in no gods,only believe in yourself because god ain't helping nobody.

2009-12-28T04:57:00.003+08:00

Just found out that i got in for Simei Ite(:
Can't upload picture-.-''

2009-12-23T02:09:00.002+08:00

It's been soooooo long since i last post,I always say that isn't it?haha!
Ok!i can say i've a boring but fun holidays.Tmr going for party!
Why is everyone coming to me and said"hey can you help me fix my computer?"I'm not an expert!So stop asking me to fix your computer!
Oh yea,i got 16 for my N level,which i got a shock cause eventually i thought i'm going to get a 20~25 score,but still i'm going to go ITE.Going to get my posting at 28th,wish me goodluck^^
Chalet at feb,kinda weird cause i'm gonna skip school for sure!hohoho!And it's gonna be christmas soon!
Let's have a smoking spree tomorrow!
I felt happy today!:D,i don't know why either so don't ask me!
And everyone watch "Supernatural"It's awesome!
I'm so happy that i'm out of Gan eng seng!Finally!SCREW YOU!
"There's darkness within every single soul."

2009-11-26T03:36:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 2pm+
6Pm+ went to leng kee play bball with hock and friends(:
Hahahah!!!while we are playing,we keep saying fuck you la!When people miss ball we will say fuck you la,don't know who started it one leh,say until we left home^^
My date with vampire 4 when are you coming out?i've waiting for almost a year already!!!

2009-11-25T01:32:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday to Jian zhong and zhao hong!(:
Went out with Hosweekakis(:
Watch 2012,kinda nice but long movie!
Then went to gary house to play monopoly^^
First time went his house never gamble-.-
How i wish 2012 is the real end of world!

2009-11-22T03:52:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday Kevin chin kok tong!
Seriously Gary i know is my fault for not coming,i really can't wake up.
Since you say until like that,fine next time i won't come for any fucking ridiculous match as i'm not even a single interested in it.Playing with you all to me is very stress,i'm not a good player i know.But let me tell you all this playing soccer is to enjoy the game not to win.winning is not everything,play seriously but have fun too.From what i see this team are playing too seriously,and it isn't fun at all playing with you guys.
I've told zhao hong before this already,don't play too seriously just have fun out there,you're not playing any competition or anything,play until so stress for what?
You say i'm irresponsible,ok indeed i am sorry about that cause that's who i am.I'm irresponsible to certain things not everything.
Since you said"if u dun want to play for this team u can jolly well fuck off"Ok,i'll just fuck off.happy?
I don't like to play soccer simple,i don't like to play too seriously like you guys.i've no passion in soccer.I play soccer because Zhao hong ask me to play because that's the time we gather.Gary think of this,if you ask a person who doesn't like soccer to play soccer every time what will he do?try not to come,try to give excuses not to come right?that's what i do,cause i don't wanna play soccer.Every time you all tell me,next week got play soccer,i'll think twice,should i or shouldn't i come.Firstly i thought of you all as my friend,cannot also ps you what,But then i really don't like to play soccer,and you all keep asking me to go play soccer.Other than soccer what can you say?Every time soccer soccer soccer.You all not sick of it,i am sick of it.I keep it to myself because i treat you all as friends.But i really can't tolerate your attitude.It's my fault alright?If you don't want this to happen again don't ever ask me to play soccer anymore,simple as that.I don't want to argue with you,so i'll just fuck off from this team.

2009-11-20T19:15:00.002+08:00

I'm shock of what my uncle say.This family is so fake,Act here act there,not happy with each other say la?I hate acting.Don't like means don't like act for fuck?i'm just avoiding the conflict,since you want me to meet them,better don't reject.If ended up fighting it's not my fault.I don't give a shit about this Dramatic family.Can you all be more real?FAMILY?I treat you all like enemy not family.
That's why i don't want to go to my grandma house,to quarrel with them?no thanks i'm sick of it.
Every single time without fail i will quarrel with them.You only think about the positive side,have you ever thought if the problem isn't as simple as you think?Yes i'm a negative person,i'm not like you all positive thinking.You're too naive to think that i'll treat them like family and act as nothing happen.NEVER IN MY LIFE I WILL ACT WHEN THERE IS SOMETHING HAPPEN.
Who say teenager only know how to fight?That's some childish motherfucking teenager does.If you're having problem with me just tell me straight,i ain't scared of anything.Adults are just selfish.

2009-11-05T03:03:00.002+08:00

For fucking godsake i'm having a terrible flu!
Damn irritating-.-
Got myself drench after while going back home after soccer-.-
I'm hungry now!any nice food?
Damn boring now!Anyone's awake?

2009-11-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

Ok,now my internet is fucking laggy,thanks to Singtel-.-
I think it's time to give up..it's getting no where.
Was having a havoc day-.-
Failure?Loser?
Satan/Jesus?
I choose the evil one,cause being a nice person is just BULLSHIT!
There's no more Mr Nice!
Sick and tired of all these nonsense days.
Die motherfucker!
The Blood Suckers rocks!\m/

2009-11-01T02:46:00.002+08:00

So this is it?we will never talk again?
We will never talk like we use to talk again?
Will we meet again?
Halloween night without you wasn't fun..
It's been almost a month since i last saw you.
An empty bottle awaiting for you to fill in the water.

2009-10-20T05:52:00.002+08:00

Hi people.Have been thinking for the past few days.
Hesitating.
What does your action shows me?
To give up?Or is it just your personality?
I can't breathe.
And people please don't give stupid comment alright?

2009-10-07T03:50:00.001+08:00

I feel damn moody now..
Where is the love?
i feel so lonely..
I feel like trying to kill myself.

2009-10-02T19:47:00.004+08:00

Why your attitude just suddenly change?
What did i do to make you so irritated or angry?why won't you just tell me?
I don't even know what did i do wrongly?Can't you just tell me?
I feel sad.
Your sudden change of attitude made me feel sad.

2009-09-28T01:18:00.002+08:00

You're not destroyed,it's just that you forget what you are,just that something is blocking your way to find your ownself,why not let down your guard and accept the real you?
I've lost myself too,totally destroyed,what am i?Who i am?Why am i here?everything have a reason for it,but what's the reason?who knows?
You are not alone!don't keep everything to yourself.Be what you wanna be,don't bind yourself,do what you want to do!
Do you really think what you really are now is the real you?
Why are you so negative?I don't know you well,but from what i know,you don't really wanna be in this way.Don't keep a distance from others.
Enjoy your life to the fullest!
Don't escape from the reality,face it and learn from it.
Be a failure rather than be a loser.
I've have yet found myself too,I'm searching for it.Where are you my other self?

2009-09-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired today,didn't eat till 6pm.But i ate too much ending up i vomit-.-
Went to play basketball then Subway with friends(:
I'm exhausted!
You should know by now right?

2009-09-20T05:38:00.002+08:00

I didn't know got people will view my blog,i'm surprise.
Viewers can tag my board?i wanna know who are you(: can?
Can't fall asleep..
I'm hungry too,someone buy food for me!
Everyone's sleeping-.-
I'm waiting...
I'm waiting for you to arrive.

2009-09-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

Wondering what should i blog.
Sometime treating a person cold does you good.
But when you feel that a person is treating you cold,isn't it very ....
That's how i felt,i hate people treating me cold.especially you.
Life was crap for me.
It seems that no one really care.
Everyone are in a bad mood now.
Sometimes i felt that you are paranoid.
Sometimes i was wandering what to say and what to do,Why do i have the hesitation?
The feeling of sea.
The feeling of sonata
The feeling of solitude
The feeling of hatred
The feeling of sorrow
The feeling of feeling

2009-08-23T00:32:00.001+08:00

Didn't went out today at all,miracle!
Haha!Found a lot of nice songs(:
Pitbull rocks! Ice cube rocks!! woo!
\m/ for life!

2009-08-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

Maybe you know?Or maybe you do not.

2009-08-16T04:03:00.000+08:00

So you think that you all are very funny?it's not,mother fucker!
Grow up man,say what you want,childish little cunt!
Know me long so what?can anyhow laugh at me for what i write?
Forget it,i've seen the true color.
833664833664!!!!*learn from Vanessa!*Don't tell anyone hor! Copyright*

2009-08-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

COLD COLD COLD COLD COLD!!!Why?
Your motion changes so fast..
I'm just a pathetic soul wandering around his own yard without anyone by his side..
Such loneliness.Don't tell me i'm not lonely,no one knows me,not even myself.
Lifeless,I'm out of breath.
I'm afraid to tell you.
I'm lost in my world,only you can get me out.
I'm hungry but i've got totally no appetite to eat,i've not eaten for the past 2 days.
Haha,what a joke i am right?laugh at me then.
I'm frustrated..

2009-08-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

Recently my stomach hurts like hell..
Don't know what's happening to my body.
Have been drinking and smoking,wandering around my area..
Feeling so lost,who am i?what am i?
What's my aim?where's my goal?
Where are you?Why does your door shut against me?
Where's the sun?i only see darkness.
I felt so lonely and bored.
我的心好闷.
I find myself,irritating and annoying.
I'm a wandering dead man walking,that's what one of my friend had told me.
I've no personality,no character.
Sometimes you're cold,sometimes you're nice.
孤独 that's represent my current life.
I'm lost in the darkness,only you can take the light and shine my way out of the dark.
The words that you all said hurts me a lot,do u know that?
I feel like screaming my heart out.
Do i have hope?

2009-08-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

For godsake i can't log in to my old email in msn-.-
SO i'm changing to psychopathic-wee@hotmail.com
Do add me if u know me(:

2009-07-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

After so many weeks i've finally blog.
I'm tired of living.I've got no real aim.
I lost hope of everything.
Someone help me~(i hope is you)

2009-07-15T03:33:00.002+08:00

Suddenly miss the past..watched 2D'06 and 3D'07 video..
just watch finish tribute to michael jackson concert.
Rest in peace michael,and rest in peace yew fatt.
Why all Good people die so early but yet the bad ones live?
Where's justice?
The world is cruel,the gods too.
How i wish i could replace them.
I've lost of words.
You will never imagine how cruel this world is.

I never dreamed you'd leave in summer
I thought you would go then come back home
I thought the cold would leave by summer
But my quiet nights will be spent alone

You said there would be warm love in springtime
That was when you started to be cold
I never dreamed you'd leave in summer
But now I find myself all alone

You said then you'd be the life in autumn
Said you'd be the one to see the way
I never dreamed you'd leave in summer
But now I find my love has gone away

Why didn't you stay?

2009-07-11T23:03:00.000+08:00

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart... when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint...
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control...
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know...

2009-07-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

Am i abnormal?
why i seems so far away from everyone?
i want to be like everyone,be happy,enjoy life..
i ain't enjoying.i'm suffering.
What can i do?there's no friend i can really trust.there's no one i'm close with.
Sometimes understand a lot of things does you harm.
There's no one who really understand me,i don't even understand myself.
What i'm thinking.Who's my friend?i don't know in reality.
I don't want internet friends,all i need is a person who really care for me.
Am i being left out?It's like what i wrote in my essay,there's true friends and passer-by,why all are passer-by?
Maybe it's my fate to be alone.the "friends"i know seems so fake.
I'm crying from the bottom of my heart.
Stop saying i'm emo.because i'm saying this from my heart.
My heart is numb.Am i a failure?
All i need is to have someone to care for me.
I don't have family love like you guys.
What if i leave the world 1 day,will it matter to anyone?
I'm afraid to be lonely.I'm weak yes i am.

2009-07-07T23:11:00.001+08:00

Everyone must watch "痞子英雄" very nice drama!(:
Nothing much to blog about..

2009-06-25T07:27:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel so empty.Is there someone who can fill the emptiness?
Maybe i should be alone forever,never felt loved ever since young.Not from family not from anyone.
Sometimes i wonder why people are so happy,while i'm the only one being so lonely.
My heart is empty,how i wish it would stop beating.
Maybe i'm not fit to be..
It's so hard to live a life.I'm not emo,it's just how i feel.
Bored to tears..

2009-06-25T04:59:00.002+08:00

SUPER FUNNY!

2009-06-11T12:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday suppose to meet fiona,but in the end i went to meet CA and jasmine,went to CA's house slack then go play bball,i realise ytd i did jump abit higher^^
大人的脑袋里面是不是装大便!
Some adults are simply stupid!they always think they are right.
Don't think your age older than us than big fuck la hor!,,!,,(*_*),,!,,
I'm sleepy!z(U_U)z
谁能打开我的心房？

2009-06-08T22:30:00.002+08:00

Today went to school to get my report book...then went to kim seng cc play badminton with hong hui,zhao feng,zhao hong,gary..After that went to henderson to play badminton again with murugan and wee kiat..
After that went to henderson market makan with yishi,jasmine,chungaik,kevin...then went to play badminton again-.-
Whole day was Badminton-ing.
Kinda tired after playing today..
If there's a choice i'll choose not to live.
Reality is cruel,that's true you have to face it.
Sometimes no matter how much effort you made,there will always be failure.

2009-06-08T11:11:00.001+08:00

Chungaik cannot wait ah-.-
Yesterday went to safra play pool at around 12-.- so early la stupid couple...
Then went to queensway eat laksa and chicken rice..
Then went to pierce my ear with jasmine and kai jie:D

lazy to blog..that's all=X

2009-06-05T13:15:00.000+08:00

歌词：歌曲:Life’s A Struggle
歌手:宋岳庭
Life's A Struggle
宋岳庭
正当我睁开双眼踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去难道生命就是这样延续？
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望Power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉
每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚
That's true
很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
I don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手？
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
不论我走到天南不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
It's kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人
我不信人因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期
我从命运的天台放眼却看不到星空
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我不得轻松
在我心中找不到一个安静的角落
我不能再沈睡下去良心彷佛在笑我
它在说：有几天几夜老妈曾经为你以泪洗面
老爸他只顾己见希望之火只见熄灭
我接起电话是老爸憔悴的声音
虽没见面却不难想像他当时的神情
刚听完他最近失业的消息
脑海里马上浮现祖母的话警告我一定要争气
我已经放弃所有哭的理由
因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头
人生要如何起头？改变要如何起手？
当活在泥沼中要如何才能金盆洗手？
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…
Uh...Life's a struggle
yeah...Life's a struggle
did u feel,man?...

2009-06-03T09:52:00.001+08:00

私..退屈午前
どこにいるの？
あなたがいなくて寂しいです。
私は混同しています。
私は病気です、この世界での生活にうんざり
私に言わせれば、それは世界の闇を書くのだ。
何をしたらいいですか？

2009-05-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Birthday over~Haha...Got surprises got disappointment.
Lazy to post up photos..
The weather today is fucking hot!
I'm so tired..
Thanks for everyone that wishes me(:
Sometime everything seems right,but you just feel wrong.
There will only be animal without hell.

2009-05-21T02:38:00.003+08:00

I just found out that,there's a new zodiac sign,The Ophiuchus.
And from gemini i changed to taurus?is it true?
http://www.love-astrology.com/13th-sign-of-the-zodiac/ophiuchus-13th-sign/
It's a very interesting thing for us to know.
Today went to a cosplay shop,it's damn cool la!i want the bag!!!
ARIES = APRIL 19 - MAY 13
TAURUS = MAY 14 - JUNE 19
GEMINI = JUNE 20 - JULY 20
CANCER = JULY 21 - AUG 9
LEO = AUGUST 10 - SEPTEMBER 15
VIRGO = SEPTEMBER 16 - OCTOBER 30
LIBRA = OCTOBER 31 - NOVEMBER 22
SCORPIO = NOVEMBER 23 - NOVEMBER 29
OPHIUCHUS = NOVEMBER 30 - DECEMBER 17
SAGITTARIUS = DECEMBER 18 - JANUARY 18
CAPRICORN = JANUARY 19 - FEBRUARY 15
AQUARIUS = FEBRUARY 16 - MARCH 11
PISCES = MARCH 12 - APRIL 18

2009-05-19T22:07:00.002+08:00

Just change blogskin,only retard won't notice it.
And the blogskin will gay meh?-.-
If gay i change it again.
I'm so motherfucking lazy to go out.
Go take the quiz>>>
http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=1467610&key=VDNS
http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=3725393&key=GHK7

2009-05-13T11:53:00.002+08:00

Hey folks!Not gonna online for today and tmr i think(:
Today waste my 45mins at school for CL listening-.-
After that went home and i tell you,i'm uber tired now;(
But i can't sleep cause i'm going out soon~~
LOVELIFE!
命运是可以改变的！

2009-05-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

Lyrics:

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you

I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

On my own, cause I can't take liven with you
I'm alone, so I won't turn out like you
Want me to

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You're wrong if you think that I'll be just like you

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

It's been awhile since i last post.
It's motherfucking exam week,and i'm motherfucking sick at this period!
For god damn sake,please recover.
Today didn't went to school for exam as i'm sick-.-
Went to some places with Mrhell,And there's a motherfucking smelly place that tajinder told us to go there buy alcohols,it's so smelly that i cannot even breathe.For your god sake please spray some fucking perfume or something.
If there's love,there will always be hatred.Mankind..
Remember,you hate what you love,you love what u hate.
So seriously there's no true love,or true hate.

2009-04-26T23:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you have to learn to let go before moving forward.
It's not a easy thing,but you have to.Not because you want to but is because you have to.
No pain no gain.
Don't be stupid!Don't always think of the past that makes you feel miserable,why not forget the past and live on?
It's not like the world is gonna end(to me i think 2012 it's gonna end?)Haha.
All our knowledge merely helps us to die a more painful death than animals that know nothing.
Best is to know nothing and die peacefully.
I'm not emo,this is me,this is what i am.
You won't get any further,unless you try harder!
No one can confidently say that he will still be living tomorrow.
Ok i'll stop the "life talk?"haha

Anyway these fews days i've made some great new friends(:
Was playing bball with them.
They are funny,jokers~~
Hope that this moment last forever.the laughter and joy that we had(:
And i shall call you "F"stop shaking your legs!!Hahahaha!
Ciao guys!will post some other days.
After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.

2009-04-14T05:15:00.002+08:00

look into your eyes
There's nothing to hide
you're no longer mine
There's so much left to say
but you are already not there
i miss you day by day
hope you will come back someday
the words that you said are so hurting
makes me non-stop crying
Please please don't go away.

Monsters are everywhere,they are hidden inside our soul.Sometimes they devour us totally.
I don't know what's important.
i've been lost in the forest of darkness,where's the hope of light?
Is there a hope of light in the darkness?
I don't know what am i thinking.
Some people say i think too much,i doubt so.
There's a movie entitled"14岁" it's so like me,not totally but mostly.
http://www.qvodzy.com/jq/jq_4598.htm

2009-04-09T05:26:00.002+08:00

Fuck! i can't sleep-.-
These few days i've not been going school,just can't wake up on time...
I should go school today but i don't will i fall back to sleep not.Hope won't but i'll be fucking tired..
Stupid,i hate going school so damn fugging early-.-
Met thaijin and weili and zhixun today(:
Suppose to met LB but in the end LB went out with parent~
I'm so bored now!And it's been more than a year since i last eat dinner with my family.
i dislike my relative even deeper now.
I miss the old times,when i was young.
The older i become the more i hate being with my relative,they aren't understanding.
I didn't even bother to talk to them,stay far away from me suckers.
I'm trap in my own circle,i will like to get out but there's just something that stop me.
Human is a killing machine!The Earth is soon being ruin by humans' doing.
Sometimes is hell trying to get to heaven.I'm neither hell nor heaven,i'm Valhalla.
I'm writing crap!!BOREDBOREDBORED~~

2009-04-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Lyrics | Eminem Lyrics | Lose Yourself Lyrics

2009-04-03T01:22:00.002+08:00

Today i'm sick.Don't ask what illness,cause i'm not answering.
I'm totally moodless.
I don't know what i'm thinking.can someone be here with me now.
i feel terrible.
i feel very loss.
Who am i?
What am i?
why am i here?
Love?I've never been in.
Hate?I've never want to be.
Sad?i'm always.
Happy?i've always want to,but i can't.
When i'm sad,no one is with me.How pathetic.
i'm in a emotionless world right now.
three-sided person is scary isn't it?
i think i'm insane.
I'm always alone.
Am i being isolated?
The trueself of me is right now.I'm still emo.
But what i said is the fact.
I've never been in love.
I never felt love before.
No one understand me,not even myself.
I'm confuse.
No one ever try to understand me.
living in a world like this makes me sad.
Human are a killing machine.

2009-04-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

Laughing buddy cheer up!Open your heart to let people know you more alright?
Being sad can't solve your problem,try to think of solution!
Be strong!you're not a weakling!2 1/2 year is just a figure!*copyrighted*
it maybe hard at first,but you still have to live your life isn't it?
Don't torture yourself,let your emotion out.you will get sick.
Get use to your life now!Don't be so dependent!So what if you don't have him?
There's so many *HIMHIMHIMHIHIMHIM* around!
Everyone know what's day is today?is the "APRIL FOOL DAY"!!!!!!hope no one get prank~ahaha!
Went to play bball with hock,hell,john:)
What's wrong with me?it's been in my head for a very long time.
Please fucking hell disappear!
Don't ever try to be emotionless,you will suffer!
FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKOFFOFFOFFOFFOFFOFFOFFOFFOFF!!!!!

2009-03-30T22:59:00.003+08:00

Sunday went to play soccer at purmei with zhao hong and the rest..
Then went to meet laughing buddy at vivo(:
Went to eat pastamania,chit chat around and was laughing hell~~
Then homed,it was a very quick and short day.
Today overslept so never went to school.
Totally boring day,didn't step out of my house at all.
Tomorrow should be playing bball with my old classmates^^
I've no right to say you,because i'm just a nobody to you.
Where are you?i need you my guardian angel.

2009-03-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today went to x-country was HOT!
Prize giving ceremony went way too far longer than i expected-.-
Saw Cheryl when i finished the race(:
Went to eat mac with derrick and zhi xun.
Then went cresent play bball with derrick,hock zhen,Mrhell,calvin,boon keat,kaijie.
Got my left thumb injured-.- *SUCK YOUR THUMB*
Went home and meet fiona,then went to sim lim square.
After that meet boonyen,yihui and friends at ikea,we were like laughing like hell knows.^^
Today meet alot of peoples ^^
Hope everyday will be fun like today,though i got hurt(:
When i saw her* i felt sorrow?
This episode went too long.It's like a neverending dream.
See through the mirror and you will see who you really are.
The tears that can't be seen.
Sometimes you are too sad to be sad.You only had to pretend nothing had happen.

2009-03-26T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hey people!Tomorrow will be x-country.Didn't really have the mood to go as i must wake up very early to prepare-.-
Yesterday had a cool "party" at school.
You need not change yourself for anyone,but change for your own sake.Changing yourself for others isn't changing it's just an act.Stop lying to yourself that she tried to change for you.Wake up!Don't live in the past,if you do,there will never be a tomorrow for you.
It's not a matter of must,it's a matter of can or cannot.
There's no right or wrong,judge by your heart,don't judge by your brain.
Try not to become a man of success, but rather, try to become a man of value.
Beneath everyone there's always the dark side of you,no one is pure no one is innocent.
Love is when someone takes your heart and shatters it, but you still love them with all the little pieces.
WARNING!Stop loving someone so seriously unless you are sure they are the one that worth it.The only one getting hurt is just yourself.
Courage is the word.
You know what is the right thing to do but you just stop yourself from doing it because you are still hesitating.What are you hesitating for when you know what's the right thing to do?

2009-03-15T01:02:00.009+08:00

Today!woke up at 12.xx pm.Was woken up by ksb call.Thanks for waking me up:)
Went supreme court with ksb,Boonyen,FionaLam,shiru,took photos and doing quiz^^
then shop with ksb,boonyen,shiru till 9+.
Went to meet ziqi then surprise yishi.
went eating with ziqi,yishi,jasmine(:
then went home,it's drizzling but i didn't got wet much.
Seeing you go,makes me hurt.

2009-03-10T00:06:00.012+08:00

Sunday went to Old changi Hospital(:
I went there to feed mosquitoes-.-
Anyone who wanna go there please bring bygone and wear long sleeve and long pants!!unless you wanna feed the mosquitoes,Haha^^
Didn't manage to go rooftop as it's very wet,don't wanna make my feet dirty.

Boonyen!Cheer up yea?Haha,i can't say anything much,but i'll try to make you smile^^
And KSB!(猫料 hor?) Study hard for you exam!
Sometimes friends are not always there for you.
Sometimes you have to depend on yourself.
The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.
A single death is a tragedy; a million deaths is a statistic.

2009-03-07T00:48:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry b!it's all my fault.
I'm fucking hell sick for 3 days,having fever,a heavy headache and giddiness.
And people please don't exaggerate your talks for goodness sake.
Living in the dark with no light is horrifying.
Went to run with b and ksb(:
not really feeling well now either,have not recovered from my illness yet.
Hopefully by tmr i'll be well(:
“There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course.
Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”
- Carl Jung

2009-02-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Why is this always happening to me?
i really hate my life.
Just fucking hell die can already.
Since i'm not a important person to anyone,action speak louder than words damn it.
I hate to like a person,it always end with a sad ending.
Life is not a drama,it don't always have happy ending.
To me,it's all sad ending.
To all my friends,i know you all don't fucking hell care about me,please stop acting as if you fucking hell care about me ok?
I've lost the trust of EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.
Why you all like to judge about people?
All of you are actors,can't you be true?
Is it very hard to be true?
I'm in a super bad mood right now,so many things had happen.
Soon things are going to turn bad,if this continue.

2009-02-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

Didn't went to school today..
Was slacking at home,then went to meet C and she's laughing like mad when i'm talking LOL!
After that pei her wait for bus then went home bath and take ball,to kim seng cc with kevin(:
Saw edward and his bro.
Tmr after school think should be playing soccer with ZH and cliques.
Nothing much to talk about.Ciao!

2009-02-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

Thanks b for waking me up:D loveyou!
Went to school...total defence day-.-
ms toh(chem teacher) gone crazy suddenly left the class...
Anyway went to town with b then meet felina and CUI MIN!!!
Cui min you look so mature sia!can't believe it!
Went to places from places~~~-.-
B your leg is make from metal de sia!won't tired de..
Went home and eat~~(:
Tmr will be a lonely valentine for me~~

2009-02-09T00:56:00.002+08:00

I did my time, and I want out!
So effusive-fade!
It doesn't cut, this soul is not so vibrant.
The reckoning, the sickening.
Packaging subversion.
Pseudo-sacrosanct perversion.
Go drill your deserts, go dig your graves!
Then fill your mouth with all the money you will save.
Sinking in, getting smaller again.
I�m done! It has begun, I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all.
We Throw ourselves against the wall.
But no-one else can see.
The preservation of the martyr in me.

Psychosocial, Psychosocial, Psychosocial.
Psychosocial, Psychosocial, Psychosocial.

There are cracks on the road we lay.
But where the temple fell, the secrets have gone mad.
This is nothing new, but when we kill it all
The Hate was all we had!
Who needs another mess, we could start over.
Just look me in the eyes and say I'm wrong!
Now there's only emptiness, venomous, insipid
I think we're done, I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all.
We Throw ourselves against the wall.
But no-one else can see.
The preservation of the martyr in me.

Psychosocial, Psychosocial, Psychosocial.
Psychosocial, Psychosocial, Psychosocial.

The limits of the dead!
The limits of the dead!
The limits of the dead!

Fake anti-fascist lie, (Psychosocial)
I've tried to tell you, but (Psychosocial)
Your purple hearts are giving out. (Psychosocial)
Can't stop the killing idea. (Psychosocial)
If it's hunting season. (Psychosocial)
Is this what you want? (Psychosocial)
I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all.
We Throw ourselves against the wall.
But no-one else can see.
The preservation of the martyr in me. X2

Went to topone and sing for 6 hours-.- throat bursting out!
I'm so cold today!-.- sing while i shiver lol!
Tmr having that stupid situational writing,i don't have the format paper with me!die die!!
Tmr sure fail le=(
And had to wake up early in the morning,that's what i hate about school...
I'm the one with problems..i'm the one who change the attitude.
I want back the past attitude!i want to take back my words,i feel so weird.I don't even know how to talk to you properly now.Guess i'm not suppose to be in love in my this life.This may sound emo yea?Haha!

2009-02-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

Albino Chip and normal chip(:
It's so hard to keep a secret for yourself when it comes to ****
It's easy to keep others secret but not your ownself ones.
Finally for don't know how long(Hmm..quite long?)i said to *******
Hmm..I knew the result,i wasn't sad but disappointed.
Today didn't went out at all(:
B must takecare of yourself!
KSB sleep more!!! hahaha even though your parents don't allow you to sleep in the afternoon.
B&KSB you 2 are not FAT AT ALL!!!

2009-02-05T21:34:00.002+08:00

Nothing is beautiful..

2009-02-04T18:22:00.003+08:00

I've been weird nowadays..if i've said something weird i'm sorry.
What am i doing?
I'm trying very hard stop to be emo le..
I've been very stress now..so many things to decide..so troublesome.
I don't know how to decide=(

2009-01-28T02:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to grandma house bai nian then went to meet shawn and chee kiat,and went to kbox,40 bucks gone-.-
Then eat and actually wanna watch "the punisher" but failed so watched "Love matters"
Does my face don't look like over 16?WTH check me-.-
Today woke up at 2.2x p.m. was waken by ZH phone call telling me to meet THEM*(the clique)
So prepared and went to meet them at tiong,brought ticket and waited for wendy and watched "大喜事"(:
It's a so-so movie..went home and rot~~
I'm staring into space just now and suddenly i recalled my childhood~cool yea?
Don't know why,i felt really really weird right now and confuse,i don't know what i'm confusing..
i can't fall to sleep..and god's sake tommorow have to go school...
I really hate school this much..People are enjoying their secondary school but not me,i don't know why..I've no good friends in school,no best buddy.Maybe i'm too cold..Am i?
There will never be someone always there for you,everyone will leave one day,that's what one of my friend told me.

Boku no Hana
Artist: Goi Michiko
Publish parts of: Song from"Densen Uta"movie

ie no chikaku no senrou ni
chiisana hana ga saiteta
hikage de utsumuku you ni
dare ni mo kitzukarenai mama...

nandaka... nandaka...
yaru senaku naru
nandaka... nandaka...
hakanaku mieru
naze boku wa kono yono naka ni
umareta no darou?

aoi densha ga tootte
kaze ni hana ga yureteru
ima ni mo tobasare sou na
namonai chippoke na sonzai

HONTO ni... HONTO ni...
itooshiku naru
HONTO ni... HONTO ni...
dareka ni niteru
naze boku wa kono katasumi de
ikiteru no darou?

sore demo namonai chiisana hana wa
Boku no Hana lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/Movie-Game-Ads/32420-Boku-no-Hana~Goi-Michiko.html
kagiri aru kisetsu wo seiippai saki tsutzukete
itsu no hi ka kareru sono doki ga kuru made
jibun kara tsuchini wa narimasen

nandaka... nandaka...
yaru senaku naru　
nandaka... nandaka...
hakanaku mieru
shiroi hanabira
HONTO ni... HONTO ni...
itooshiku naru
HONTO ni... HONTO ni...
dareka ni niteru
naze boku wa kono katasumi de
ikiteru no darou?

ie no chikaku no senrou ni
chiisa na hana ga saiteta
dare ni mo kitzukare nakutemo
koushite boku dake wa miteru

"Boku no Hana" - "My Flower"

Near my house there delicately
Bloomed a small flower
In the shade it drooped its head
As no one noticed it

Why, oh why has it become helpless?
Why, oh why does it all seem so fleeting?
Why have I been
Born into this world?

A blue train passes
And the flower sways from the wind
Even now as it flies about
A nameless, pretty existence

Truly, oh truly this design has become regrettable
Truly, oh truly it resembles somebody
Why am I living
In this corner?

Nevertheless, the nameless flower
In this limited season spitefully continues to bloom
Until the day comes when it withers
It will not be from me to the earth

Why, oh why has it become so helpless?
Why, oh why does it all seem so fleeting?
These white petals

Truly, oh truly this design has become regrettable
Truly, oh truly it resembles someone
Why am I living
In this corner?

Near my house there delicately
Bloomed a small flower
Even though nobody noticed it
In this way only I watched it

2009-01-23T20:48:00.002+08:00

A group effort can be an extremely productive thing, but right now the group you are in is becoming a quagmire of conflicting egos and hidden agendas. Be on the lookout for members of your group who are out for themselves. Don't get overly paranoid, just be sensitive to people who are too adamant about certain things. If someone isn't willing to compromise, then that someone is hiding something. Call them out before they steer things too far off the track.

Sorry!i trust you!Don't angry ok?
I just ask my friend cause she stay nearer there and so i think she should be more familiar,i don't want to waste your time,cause i know your time is packed today..
I'm really really sorry!Sorry for making you feel useless=(
But still thank you for accompany me(:
Forgive me ok?

2009-01-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

How i wish the moon is red,the heart is black,the world is upside down.
I hope the world will end,Why people suicide?
Because they think that they don't have the sense of belonging in this world.There's nothing left to do in this world.The world is so disastrous that they prefer to die rather than living in this crap world.Because they are too lonely,no one save them from the loneliness.
I thought of suicide before,that's how i feel maybe?
How i wish there's a song that can let you suicide.
People will be sad if you die?crap!why don't they care for you when u are alive?rather than after you die than they care?
Humans are like that,when you are alive they don't care you,after you die,they cry like hell..
God create human?BULLSHIT!Where is god? come out la!i don't believe in god.
Some people believe in god because they don't have anything to rely on!
Guess i'm venting my anger on words..

2009-01-22T00:40:00.003+08:00

Do you dream, that the world will know your name
So tell me your name
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all?
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive
To know I'm alive

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

Do you believe, in the day that you were born
Tell me do you believe?
Do you know, that everyday's the first of the rest of your life

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

This is to one last day in the shadows
And to know a brother's love
This is to New York City angels
And the rivers of our blood
This is to all of us, to all of us

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon

You can tell me all your thoughts, about the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to, when no one's left to take your side
But don't tell me where the road ends, cause I just don't wanna know, No I don't wanna know

Don't tell me if I'm dying
Don't tell me if I'm dying
Don't tell me if I'm dying

I WANT MY BELT!!!!!T_T
Today (ALL) didn't went to school =o
Went to BY's house then listen to her ranting about HER again~~~
Why don't you just give up on her?
There's so many better than her la!nono in fact all is better than her lor!
But there's something that she's really good,Acting!And give her the golden horse award liao lor!
After that meet KSB at her place then went eating with her cousin and granny(:
Then went to JE's pasamalam,at first i thought is the worst pasamalam i ever seen but after that BY,KSB and me went to Holland de more worst-.-
C. come then after awhile KSB and i went home le~~
While waiting for bus C. and BY came and i got a shock!
they were going to HER place if i'm not wrong-.-

2009-01-18T20:43:00.002+08:00

Do you all think it's really funny to joke about people?
I know u all are joking about me,i just don't wanna scold it out.
I've tolerate enough,Stop joking about me can?is it very funny?
If u think it is and continue joking,Just fuck off my life!
Friends?this is what u all call friends?
If you all want to joke,Why can't you joke at others rather than our own clique people?
Sometimes i want myself to be malay,because they always joke at others but not their friends.
Don't you are care about others feeling?
Fiona,i'm not living at my own world,i'm just doing the right thing!i've done nothing wrong,why should i get this kind of attitude?
Maybe i've done wrong,why don't you all tell me?
I hate people joke about their own friends.
You all know who i refering to,Stop acting blur!
I've always know u all are badmouthing about me.Just that i'm tolerating.
Friends are not meant to be joke about!

2009-01-15T02:35:00.002+08:00

Hmm..What i've done?
Studying sucks to the core!Singapore sucks too!-.-even though i'm singaporean..
Some would say what for ranting about this,in reality u are still in singapore..True..i'll make my way not to be in singapore!
My home sucks!my life too..Lifeless!
I'm not emoing please ok..
Just freaking out what i've in mind..
You all should watch this movie"suicide circle"Watch "Suicide Club" Movie
Anyway anyone wanna tag please kindly leave your link ok?(: thank you^^
cause i don't know how to reply you all when i don't have your link.
Does study really help in work? simple maths can do it isn't it?
Why do we have to study algebra and all those sciences things when it don't apply in work in the future?

2009-01-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

What are true friends?
Pangseh call true friends?
everytime say true friend true friend,then ps me..
Forget it,now i know what TRUE FRIENDS are..
Now i don't know what friends are for..
Sometimes you had to go to people?but now even i want i've no one to go to.
Feel like going back to the past.

2009-01-05T02:38:00.002+08:00

True Ip man and my idol bruce lee(:
But they are both dead....
Finally got this blogskin that i like,hope you all like it too(:
Went out with GBY!
Then with GH!
And went home le~~
Tmr have school;( don't feel like going,but must go~~(Being Force)
Ohya...Must watch movie"海角七号" &"Ip man"
Must listen Songs:海角七号 by 东来东往,幸福不灭 by 罗志祥,Just Dance by Lady Gaga,同一个遗憾 by 潘玮柏,野玫瑰 by 范逸臣,When i grow up by The Pussycat Dolls,Hot 'N Cold by Katy Perry...and continue~~too many to mention.

2009-01-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

Fake Smile.
My life is a disaster,my mind is confuse,i'm stress.
I'm the passerby in all of you all life.
I'm not important.
I'm not emoing.
I'm just saying what i want to say.
If you gonna say,u are important to me,let me feel it.
Don't say crap to me.I won't appreciate that.
I'm an asshole,I'm a jerk,i don't pity people.
I do what i want.
I care about others feeling,but do you all care about mine?
I'm lonely,who's there for me?NO ONE.
Forget what i said,forget me.
How i really wish 2012 is real.
"Life is beautiful"is a bullshit.
I hate people giving me attitude.
So if you want give me attitude,fuck off my life.
And stop finding excuses in your life.
Counting down to the end of the world.

2008-12-22T07:14:00.002+08:00

Recently i've been thinking alot,about the future..
I'm scared.I can't face the reality..
I think my mind is bursting..what the fuck am i thinking?
And recently i've just fucking hell lost my fucking phone while playing bball at Kim seng CC..Fuck that!!
Today should be meeting ah boy and shawn bah.
Yesterday went to play bball with derrick,we talk alot about the past.
I miss the past,but there's no way i can get back there.
How i wish i could stay at that happy moment forever,forget the burden,forget about what bullshit studying.
What i want is to live happily,but i don't know how to.
I want to live a crazy life!!
Maybe my mind had freak out..
How i wish i can just lie in my coffin and die peacefully,so that i've no more worries.I've been a coward all my life.
I'm not being emo or whatever so,i'm just stating the fact.
I've no future,i'm no life,i'm a coward to life,i can't wake up from my unconsciousness...i'm always been sleeping for my life,i'm lazy..i always find things troublesome.
I'm always a failure.
Anyway no one cares about me.
Say and do is a totally different thing.
Some people always say they care,do they really care?or they just say for the sake of saying?
Where are all my amigos?I'm really lonely,i felt helpless,i want to release my stress!!!Who want to go have a drink?
I feel devil inside me,recently i've been unforgiven.DO YOU THINK I WANT TO BE UNFORGIVEN?It's YOU ALL WHO CAUSE ME TO BE!!!FUCK THAT!

2008-12-11T03:51:00.004+08:00

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The Nine Satanic Statements

by Anton Szandor LaVey

1. Satan represents indulgence instead of abstinence!

2. Satan represents vital existence instead of spiritual pipe dreams!

3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom instead of hypocritical self-deceit!

4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates!

5. Satan represents vengeance instead of turning the other cheek!

6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible instead of concern for psychic vampires!

7. Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those that walk on all-fours, who, because of his “divine spiritual and intellectual development,” has become the most vicious animal of all!

8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification!

9. Satan has been the best friend the Church has ever had, as He has kept it in business all these years!

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.
2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.
3. When in another’s lair, show them respect or else do not go there.
4.a guest in your lair annoys you, treat them cruelly and without mercy.
5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.
6. not take that which does not belong to you, unless it is a burden to the other person and they cry out to be relieved.
7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.
8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.
9. Do not harm little children.
10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.
11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask them to stop. If they do not stop, destroy them.

=== The Nine Satanic Sins ===
1. [[Stupidity]] — The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It’s too bad that stupidity isn’t painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable. Satanists must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid.

2. [[Pretentious]]ness — Empty posturing can be most irritating and isn’t applying the cardinal rules of Lesser Magic. This is on equal footing with stupidity for what keeps the money in circulation these days. Everyone’s made to feel like a big shot, whether they can come up with the goods or not.

3. [[Solipsism]] — Projecting your reactions, responses, and sensibilities onto someone who is probably far less attuned than you are can be very dangerous for Satanists. It is the mistake of expecting people to give you the same consideration, courtesy and respect that you naturally give them. They won’t. Instead, Satanists must strive to apply the dictum of “Do unto others as they do unto you.” It’s work for most of us, and requires constant vigilance, lest you slip into a comfortable illusion of everyone being like you. As it has been said, certain utopias would be ideal in a nation of philosophers, but unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately, from a [[Machiavellianism|Machiavellian]] standpoint) we are far from that point.

4.-[[deceit]] — It’s in the “Nine Satanic Statements”, but deserves to be repeated here. It is another cardinal sin. We must not pay homage to any of the sacred cows presented to us, including the roles we are expected to play ourselves. The only time self-deceit should be entered into is when it’s fun, and with awareness. But then, it’s not self-deceit!
5. Herd [[Conformity]] — That’s obvious from a Satanic stance. It’s all right to conform to a person’s wishes, if it ultimately benefits you. But only fools follow along with the herd, letting an impersonal entity dictate to you. The key is to choose a master wisely, instead of being enslaved by the whims of the many.

6. Lack of [[Perspective (cognitive)|perspective]] — Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a Satanist. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence. We are making history right now, every day. Always keep the wider historical and social picture in mind. That is an important key to both Lesser and Greater Magic. See the patterns and fit things together as you want the pieces to fall into place. Do not be swayed by herd constraints: Know that you are working on another level entirely from the rest of the world.

7. [[Forgetfulness]] of Past [[Orthodoxies]] — Be aware that this is one of the keys to brainwashing people into accepting something new and different, when in reality it’s something that was once widely accepted but is now presented in a new package. We are expected to rave about the genius of the creator and forget the original. This makes for a disposable society.

8. Counterproductive [[Pride]] — That first word is important. Pride is great up to the point you begin to throw out the baby with the bathwater. The rule of Satanism is: If it works for you, great. When it stops working for you, when you’ve painted yourself into a corner and the only way out is to say, I’m sorry, I made a mistake, I wish we could compromise somehow, then do it.

9. Lack of [[Aesthetics]] — This is the physical application of the Balance Factor. Aesthetics is important in Lesser Magic and should be cultivated. It is obvious that no one can collect any money off classical standards of beauty and form most of the time, so they are discouraged in a consumer society; but an eye for beauty, for balance, is an essential Satanic tool and must be applied for greatest magical effectiveness. It’s not what’s supposed to be pleasing: It’s what ''is''. Aesthetics is a personal thing, reflective of one’s own nature, but there are [[Beauty|universally pleasing and harmonious configurations]] that should not be denied.

2008-11-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

70 Ways to Better Brainpower -
(In no particular order.)

1. Breath deep. More air in means more oxygen in the blood and therefore in the brain. Breath through your nose and you'll notice that you use your diaphragm more, drawing air deeper into your lungs. Several deep breaths can also help to relax you, which is conducive to clearer thinking.

2. Meditate. A simple meditation you can do right now is just closing your eyes and paying attention to your breath. Tensing up your muscles and then relaxing them to start may help. When your mind wanders, just bring your attention back to your breath. Five or ten minutes of this will usually relax you, clear your mind, and leave you more ready for any mental task.

3. Sit up straight. Posture affects your thinking process. Prove it to yourself by doing math in your head while slouching, looking at the floor and letting your mouth hang open. Then do the mental math while sitting up straight, keeping your mouth closed and looking forward or slightly upwards. You'll notice that it's easier to think with the latter posture.

4. Phosphotidyl Serine (PS). This supplement has been shown in clinical studies to increase lucidity and rate of learning. It activates cell-to-cell communication, helps regulate cell growth, improves the functioning of the special receptors found on cells, and prepares cells for activity. In other words, it can help your brain power. It's also thought to reverse memory decline. Phosphatidylserine has no known adverse side effects.

5.Vinpocetine. This extract, derived from an alkaloid found in the Periwinkle plant, is used as a cerebral vasodilator. It increases blood flow to the brain, which improves its oxygenation and thereby increases mental alertness and acuity. Research suggests it may also be the most powerful memory enhancer available to date.

6. Gingko Biloba. The leaves of this tree have been proven to increase blood flow to the brain. The trees are often planted in parks. My friends and I used to eat a few leaves when we wanted a brain boost. It is also inexpensive, if you buy the capsules or tea at any health food store.

7. Saint John's Wort. This is a common weed that may be growing in your yard. Although it's brain enhancing qualities are less documented (studies do show it's usefulness for treating long-term depression), many people swear by it's temporary mood-elevating effect, and our brains tend to function better when we are happy. It is inexpensive, but I used to just collect it in the yard and make tea of it. (Hyperacum Perforatum, if you want to look it up by it's botanical name.)

8. Good thinking habits. Just use a problem solving technique for several weeks and it will become a habit. Redesign everything you see for a while, and that will become a habit. You can develop many good thinking habits with some effort, and then be more resourceful effortlessly from that point on. Use the power of habit.

9. Use dead time. This is time that is otherwise wasted or just under-utilized. Driving time, time spent in waiting rooms, or even time spent raking your yard can be included in this. With a tape player and a trip to a public library, you can start to use this time to listen to books-on-tape. You may spend 200 hours a year in your car. What could you learn in that time?

10. Learn a language. Learning a new language has been shown to halt the age-related decline in brain function. It also introduces your mind to new concepts and new ways of looking at things (in English we are afraid, whereas in Spanish we have fear). It is one of the best brain exercises.

11. Rosemary. This common herb may have an effect on the brain when the scent is inhaled. We are waiting for the research, but some people swear that just sniffing rosemary wakes up their brain. It seems safe, so if you have rosemary in your spice rack, give it a try.

12. Mindfulness exercises. Concentration and clear thinking are more or less automatic once you remove distractions. Learn to stop and watch your busy mind. As you notice things that are subtly bothering you, deal with them. This might mean making a phone call you need to make, or putting things on a list so you can forget them for now. With practice, this becomes easier, and your thinking becomes more powerful.

13. Write. Writing is good for your mind in a number of ways. It is a way to tell your memory what is important, so you'll recall things more easily in the future. It is a way to clarify your thinking. It is a way to exercise your creativity and analytical ability. Diaries, idea-journals, poetry, note-taking and story-writing are all ways to use writing to boost your brain power.

14. Listen to Mozart. In a study at the University of California, researchers found that children who studied piano and sang daily in chorus, were much better at solving puzzles, and when tested, scored 80% higher in spatial intelligence than the non-musical group. In another study, 36 students were given three spatial reasoning tests on a standard IQ test. Just before the first test, they listened to Mozart's sonata for Two Pianos in D Major, K. 448 for ten minutes. Before the second test, they listened to a relaxation tape. Before the third, they sat in silence. The average scores for all 36 students: 1st test: 119. 2nd test: 111. 3rd test: 110. A nine-point boost from Mozart!

15. Develop your intuition. Intuition can be an important part of brainpower. Einstein and others have relied heavily on their intuitive hunches. See Chapter 25 for tips on how to develop your intuition.

16. Avoid foods that cause subtle allergies. These can include wheat, corn, peanuts and dairy products. Watch yourself to see if you have a problem with any of these. They cause digestive problems and brain fog in some people.

17. Sleep better. As long as you get a certain amount of sleep - probably a minimum of five hours - the quality seems to be more important than the quantity. Also, short naps in the afternoon seem to work well to recharge the brain for some people.

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18. Caffeine. The research shows higher test scores for students who drink coffee before major exams. My chess game gets better. In other studies, it has been shown that too much caffeine leads to poorer quality decisions. Caffeine affects individuals differently, and has some nasty long-term side effects for some of us, but short-term - it works!

19. Avoid sugar. Any simple carbohydrates can give you "brain fog." Sometimes called the "sugar blues" as well, this sluggish feeling makes it hard to think clearly. It results from the insulin rushing into the bloodstream to counteract the sugar rush. Avoid pasta, sugars, white bread and potato chips before any important mental tasks.

20. Hypnosis audios. The power of suggestion is real, and one way to use it is with hypnosis tapes, CD's or downloads. This type of brain "programing" has more evidence for it than subliminals.

21. Speed reading. Contrary to what many believe, your comprehension of material often goes up when you learn to speed-read. You get to learn a lot more in less time, and it is definitely a good brain exercise.

22. Exercise. Long term exercise can boost brainpower, which isn't surprising. Anything that affects physical health in a positive way probably helps the brain too. Recent research, though, shows that cognitive function is improved immediately after just ten minutes of aerobic exercise. If you need a brain recharge, you might want to walk up and down the stairs a few times.

23. Imaginary friends. Talking to and getting advice from characters in your mind can be a great way to access the information in your subconscious mind. Imagine a conversation with a person who has a lot of knowledge in the area you want advice in.

24. Develop your creativity. Creativity gives power to your thinking. Raw computation can be done by computers now, but humans provide the creative thought that shapes our world. See Chapter 24 for tips on developing your creativity.

25. Learn more efficiently. When you decide to learn something, take notes from the start. Leave each "learning session" with a question or two in mind, to create anticipation and curiosity. Take short breaks, so there will be more beginnings and endings to your studies (Things learned at the beginning or ending of a class or session are remembered better).

26. Use techniques for clear thinking. Cluttered rooms and offices can contribute to cluttered thinking. Organize a space for mental work. Sigh, stretch, and take a deep breath before you start on a tough mental job. Plan some distraction-free time for brainstorming.

27. Brain wave entrainment. The newest brain wave entrainment products are powerful tools for altering your brain function. Some will almost immediately relax you, while others will put your brain waves in a pattern that is most conducive to analytical thinking.

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28. Creatine. This is a compound found in meat, used by athletes to help build muscle. Now the evidence is here to show that it helps your brain as well. Proceedings B , a journal published by the Royal Society reports that the research showed improvement in working memory and general intelligence resulting from creatine supplementation. The dose used in the study was 5 grams per day. This is about the level used to boost sports performance, and is as much as you'd normally get in four pounds of meat, according to lead researcher Dr. Caroline Rae.

29. Talk. Talking is only good for the brain if you are actually exercising it, of course. Try explaining something that you don't understand very well to a friend, though, and you'll notice that the process of explaining will help you clarify your understanding.

30. Do something you enjoy. This is a way to both lower stress and rev up your brain. The key is to do something active. Watching TV doesn't count. Whether it is playing Scrabble or building birdhouses, when you are actively engaged in an activity that you enjoy, you worry less about things and you start to think better.

31. Adjust your beliefs. Believe you are smarter, and you'll become smarter. For this, affirmations may work, but even better is evidence. Make a note of your successes. Tell yourself, "Hey, that was really creative," when you do something creative. When you have a good idea, make a note of it. Gather the evidence for your own intelligence and you'll start to experience more of it.

32. Brain exercises. Do math in your mind while driving. Think of a new use for everything you see. Regular use of the brain has been shown to generate new neuronal growth, and even halt the decline of mental function that often comes with age.

33. Learn new things. This is another way to exercise the brain. It can also be done with little time investment if you use books-on-tapes while driving.

34. Walk. Exercise has been shown to benefit the brain, and walking is one of the best exercises for many. It is low impact, and the rhythmic nature of it seems to put you in a state that is very conducive to clear thinking. In fact, carry a tape recorder with you to take notes, and a twenty minute walk can be a great way to solve problems.

35. Model others. Find others that are creative, intelligent, or very productive. Do what they do, and think what they think. This is a key principle of neuro-linguistic programming. Be careful about taking their advice, though. Successful people often don't really understand why they are successful. Do what they do, not what they say.

36. Eat fish. Eating fish actually speeds up brain waves, and improves concentration. Researchers have also found an almost perfect correlation between intake of fish and lowered levels of depression in the various countries of the world. The U.S. has 24 times the incidence of depression as Japan, for example, where fish intake is much higher.

37. Avoid unnecessary arguments. When you defend a position too vigorously, especially when it is just to "win" the argument, you invest our ego into it. This is not conducive to the easy acceptance and use of new information. In other words, you put your mind in a rut, and you dig it deeper with each argument. Debate can be a valuable thing, but when the ego takes over, the mind closes a little. This is not a recipe for better thinking.

38. Laugh. The release of endorphins caused by laughter lowers stress levels, which is good for long term brain health. Laughter also tends to leave you more open to new ideas and thoughts.

39. Play. Stimulating the brain causes measurable changes in the structure of the brain. New connections are made and new brain cells are grown. Intellectual play, as well as any playing that involves hand-eye coordination stimulates the brain.

40. Do puzzles. Crossword puzzles, lateral thinking puzzles, and even good riddles are a great way to get brain exercise. You can work on them while waiting for a dentist appointment, or on the bus, if you are short on time.

41. Sing. When you are alone in your car, try singing about something you are working on. This taps into and exercises your right brain. Have you ever noticed how it is easier to rhyme when you sing than when you just speak or write? This is because the right brain is better at pattern recognition. By doing this brain exercise regularly you can train yourself to tap into the power of the right brain. This will make you a more effective problem-solver. If you doubt the distinction between the hemispheres of the brain, look at how stutterers can stop stuttering as soon as they start singing. Try it.

42. Nuts. University students in Brazil and other South American countries often eat several Brazil nuts before an exam, believing they are good for their mental power. The evidence is starting to confirm this. Other nuts that have minerals and amino acids that are beneficial to the brain include almonds and walnuts.

43. Olive oil. High in mono-unsaturated fat, olive oil has been shown to improve memory. A cheaper alternative is canola oil, but this hasn't been studied much yet.

44. Vitamin supplements. In studies, children scored higher on tests when on a regimen of daily vitamin supplements. "Experts" will tell you that if you eat a balanced diet, you don't need supplements, which, given the culture here, is really just a sales pitch for vitamins, isn't it? Who eats a perfectly balanced diet?

45. Fiber. It isn't just what goes in, but what comes out that is important to brain function. Toxic build-up in the body and brain can cause "brain fog." People often report clearer thinking as one of the benefits of curing their constipation.

46. Self awareness. This may not seem important to brain power, but it is. When you know yourself better, you can avoid the usual effects of ego and emotion in your seemingly "rational" thinking. Or you can at least take it into account. Watch yourself, especially as you explain things or argue.

47. Motivate yourself. Motivation is as important to mental tasks as it is to any other. Learn a few simple techniques for self motivation. You can start with those in Chapter 8.

48. Avoid too much stress. Neuropsychiastrist Richard Restak, M.D., form the George Washington University School of Medicine and Health Services, sums up the research thus: "Stress causes brain damage." Long term stress has repeated been shown to hurt the brain, not to mention the rest of the body. Learn a few stress reduction techniques if you get stressed out often.

49. Get educated. Scientists have known for a while that the less educated get alzheimer's more frequently. Education in any area seems to make the brain stronger.

50. Avoid too much fat. In laboratory studies, animals consistently learn slower when they are on a diet high in fat. Type of fat may make a difference, so you may want to stick to using olive oil and other non-saturated fats. Saturated fats have been shown to actually stunt the growth of brain cells.

51. Eat less. Overeating has the immediate effect of redirecting more blood to the digestive process, leaving less for the brain. Long term, it can cause arterial obstructions that reduce blood flow to the brain permanently. In at least one study, rats on a restricted-calorie diet had more brainpower.

52. Avoid suspect foods. There is evidence that the following foods can be bad for your brain: Artificial food colorings, artificial sweeteners, colas, corn syrup, frostings, high-sugar drinks, hydrogenated fats, sugars, white bread, and any white-flour products.

53. Eat breakfast. When kids who didn't eat breakfast started to eat it, researchers found that their math scores went up a whole grade on average.

54. Avoid diabetes. The development of diabetes coincides with a dropping of IQ scores. In other words, if you want to maintain your brain power, follow your doctors dietary recommendations for preventing or treating diabetes.

55. Eat foods high in antioxidants. Antioxidants protect all your cells, including brain cells. Some of the foods highest in antioxidants include: prunes, raisins, blueberries, blackberries, garlic, kale, cranberries, strawberries, spinach, and raspberries. In one test, rats had age-related mental decline reversed by eating the equivalent of a 1/2 cup of blueberries per day.

56. Drink wine. In moderation, red wine can be good for the brain, it seems. It is rich in antioxidants, which protect brain cells. One glass per day for women and two for men is usually considered a safe and moderate amount.

57. Use alcohol in moderation. In a study at the University of Indiana School of Medicine, elderly light drinkers (fewer than 4 drinks per week) scored higher on tests of thinking abilities than non-drinkers. Those who drank 10 or more drinks per week scored lower. It is known that alcohol can kill brain cells, so moderation seems to be the key.

58. Folic acid. According to one study, 200 micrograms of folic acid, the amount found in 3/4 cup of cooked spinach, alleviates depression and reverses memory loss.

59. Potential brain foods. Other foods that may be good for your brain include: Avocados, bananas, lean beef, brewer's yeast. broccoli, brown rice, brussel sprouts, cantaloupe, cheese, chicken, collard greens, eggs, flaxseed oil, legumes, oatmeal, oranges, peanut butter, peas, potatoes, romaine lettuce, salmon, soybeans, spinach, tuna, turkey, wheat germ, and yogurt.

60. Vitamin E. Jean Carper, in researching her book, "Your Miracle Brain," found that many brain researchers are taking 400 I.U.s of vitamin E daily. It is an antioxidant, and reduces the clogging of blood vessels, including those going in the brain.

61. Vitamin C. Taken in the form of orange juice in a study at the Texas Women's University, vitamin C increased the IQ scores of children.

62. Selenium. 100 micrograms of selenium has been shown to be a mood-elevator. Your brain almost certainly functions better when you are in a better mood. Foods rich in selenium include Brazil nuts and garlic.

63. Alpha-lipoic acid. Alpha-lipoic acid (10 to 50 milligrams daily) improves memory and protects nerve cells.

64. Inositol. This is a safe and natural substance that is often grouped with the B-vitamins. It reduces stress and promotes clear thinking. It contributes to energy production, and so can "wake you up." Animal studies show a measurable increase in physical activity for up to five hours after taking it.

65. Huperzine A. This is a compound extracted from the Chinese club moss. Researchers both in Israel and the U.S. have used it to treat alzheimer's. It improves memory and learning an seems to be very safe.

66. Ask questions. This is a great way to keep your brain in shape. Just get in the habit of asking questions often, even if it is only in your own mind. Why are taller buildings better? what is the purpose of curbs? Ask anything that comes to mind, and ponder the possible answers.

67. Sniff basil. This another of the herbs that may be good for your brain. No studies yet, but many report a brain boost from smelling basil.

68. Temperature. Many people have noted that they think better at certain temperatures. In general, it seems that being slightly cool, but not uncomfortable, is most conducive to good thinking. Try experimenting on yourself to see what temperature works best for you.

69. Use systems. From the time I was ten years old, 12 x 49 was always (12 x 50) - 12. It's easier to figure in your head this way (588, by the way). I didn't get any credit for my personal algorithms then, but they are selling these shortcuts on late-night TV now, because they work. You can find your own easier ways to do mental math or other mental tasks, or read a good book on them.

70. Make a brainpower plan. It takes about twenty to thirty days of repetition to establish new habits, many psychologists will tell you. This means that when you create your plan for better brainpower, be sure you plan to use that new problem solving technique, or eat those new brain foods for at least three weeks. You can use many of the brain boosters here and get immediate results, but it is creating new habits that will give you the most brainpower.

2008-11-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

What am i to you?

2008-11-02T09:02:00.002+08:00

I'm still awake since ytd 6pm...
Kinda bored~~
Downloaded quite a lot of songs(:
Anyway didn't went out for yesterday..think today too.
Wanna sleep soon,my bodyclock is back as usual.
Oh yea You all should check Eminem new album @ december.
He's Back!!!

2008-10-30T03:53:00.002+08:00

Just watch Cybrog girl...I cried hell lot while watching;(
Made me think of my past.i miss my past,i miss those days.
I'm crying while typing this post,believe it or not.
I really miss those day,those busy but fun days,not like now,really very lonely.
I don't know how to explain my feeling;( i keep crying..
How i wish i can view my past...
I hate now..i really hate it..
Maybe those people that dun really know me,think that i'm lying.
My eyes hurt..

2008-10-17T09:08:00.000+08:00

2008-10-01T02:42:00.002+08:00

Finally got the 抢先版 de jay new album(:
The link is http://www.mediafire.com/?zjwxzijg3qd
01. 魔杰座
02. 女儿红
03. 东方之殿
04. 红楼梦中
05. 失恋的青蛙
06. 失落非主流
07. 从新爱
08. 大灌蓝
09. 达芬奇的画布
10. 小丑
11. 稻香

Ok..today went to play soccer with zhao hong they all,quite a big group..
Then went home...download all those jay's song then went to grand watch movie with cindy...
Now having headache..